ღI'm Sorryღ

dear God. why you want make she accept him now ? why not earlier than this ?! i really cant accept it. last time, we always spend our day together. now. he appear in your life. everything did changed. our friendship that make people jealous, did become weak because of it. we always kinda quarrel about it. you always scold me when i did say i dont want become light bulb between you two and you ignored me at behind. you did scared that you will hurted me. because i get two bestest friend that because get bf already direct throw me. you did know my feeling so you dint want me to get hurt again. i know you will feel sad if i sad about it. i know you will cry if i tell you i sad again. i know you will disappointed about yourself because make me sad again. i know. i'm sorry piggy. 

i be your bestest sister so long. i know what yang different than before. i dint know more about you already. i dint know all thing that happened to you. you told him everything and only tell me some. maybe cause you lazy tell the second time or forget. i dint know. i only know, everything changed. i'm sorry again cause recently my message towards you so cool. i really dont have that mood to have fun with you. recently you keep sleep. i also dont know why you will so tired. somehow, i'm so worried about you. but then i dint ask more because i know someone out there more care you than me. more siak you than me. i did miss you. i did feel sad if you dint reply my text or late. i did feel lonely without your text. every single of message i really hope its you. but then i just dont know why i just dont have the mood to laugh or even put ' xD ' on my text. i really dont know.

being your bestest friend is the most wonderful present for me. i get my smile, natural laugh and happiness because of you. i ignored those emo thingy aside when i was with you. i only smile and laugh whenever where we are. even in the bus also we can laugh like orang gila. dont you know i really miss those memories ? i know my place now. i know bf is more important than friend. everyone said, friend more important than bf. but then when they found their loves one. they'll change. because wherever friend go, their loves one will join them after awhile. i know i shouldn't sad. i know i shouldn't care so much. but then i already biasa with you always. i really really really not biasa when i standing there alone without you beside me. i dint blame you. because you also will sad if both of us sad. if you saw me sad, you'll stand beside me and accompany me. if you saw him alone again, you'll go and stand beside him.

i know you already try your best to make me happy. i know you already try your best to not make me feel lonely. i know you already try your best not to hurt me like how my ex bestest friend did to me. i know you already try your best. its not your fault. its always my fault that i couldn't accept it. its my fault that i fell sad easily. sensitive girl will always be sensitive. always feel sad whenever their cares one not so care about you. i'm useless. i'm such a bitch that dont know how to appreciate. really so stupid for being a friend. i did always failed on my relationship and friendship. i really really really so failed. only at school i did laugh a lot. at home, i keep think that think this. this thing happened again. always luan luan think. i just can try my best to accept everything that happened so suddenly and change myself. once again. i'm sorry.

x_.]..Ching..["'_