ღDisappointedღ

why am i still disappointed when you not even mine ? i can say that Alwin ruin my day. he just back today from PLKN and he saw my single status. so asked what happened. he even told me that HE find him just now. so there is CURIOUS question on my mind. i do want to know he got back or not. too bad he only know that HIS family go there visit HIM. he dont know when go there. now, what i scared is, i MIGHT be meet HIM at there. i hope will and hope wont. i hope will cause i miss him. i want talk to him and ask many many question before one of us regret one day. i hope wont cause i scare he really dont love me anymore and i ended up annoy him like what i've dream that day. that dream really hurts me a lot. :( why is nobody could tell me what should i do right now ? owh ya. how tell ? i dont even told them what is the reason me and HIM break. i only tell one. that is Cindy.

i hope HE can understand that i broke my promise to him. its hard for me to keeping this alone. i do need someone who understand me and always there comfort me. but then she also always busy. plus i dont want to kacau her lovey dovey with Sean. those friend always find me last year all disappear already. cause those closer friend, all in a relationship. i used to have many friend. but then because of HIM, all hilang liao. now i should blame who ? blame myself cause asked a chance from you ? or blame Audrey cause she make me jealous and wanted to have a boyfriend ? now think back also useless. nasi sudah menjadi bubur. :)

maybe HE just dont love me anymore. i wait HIM also no use ? maybe i should just stay loving HIM until i found someone loves me. if that someone really loves me, and HIM still no respond. i'll try my best to forgot HIM and loves that someone. if only that someone sabar to wait my love. i'm sorry once again. not HIM. its me who makes HIM go away. now all i get is regret and HAVE to move on. but i still hope HE'll back to me one day. when it is ? like HE said HE need FEW YEARS ? thats make me even curious. i need someone to kill me and sleep for FEW YEARS then just wake up from koma. lmao ! i really really really really really dont know what to do. :( Dear God, can i meet you ? Sincerely, your sensitive daughter. (:

x_.]..Vyonne..[""_