ღWHOLE DAYღ

well, i really dont mind if he dont talk to me at all. i feel like i'm giving up on him. until i reach Cameron Valley. i saw MANY couples and the song played on that shop make me remind of him. i missed him. A LOT ! since there, my mind cant stop thinking of him. i started to sad again. started to think whether i should wait or shouldn't. my love towards him still the same like last time. how i wish to hug you right now. how i wish you could come back to me and tell me you're just playing all the time. yeah, i wish. now all i can do is wish. talk to God and asked many things from him. maybe not counted as many. because all i asked for is him. :') here is me again. emo girl. ._. was very emo at ladang tea just now. those fake smile was really stupid.

i wish he could spend his time to sms me. but then i know it wont happened. i dont want to disturb him cause i scared i might annoyed him and feel me geli if i told him I LOVE HIM AND I MISS HIM VERY MUCH ! after leaving strawberry farm, we direct on our way go home. well of course i slept on the car cause no line plus headache. when we reach Iskandar there, SHOCKED ME a lot to see his message pop out in my phone. i dont know how to reply like seriously. i just cant imagine he WOULD sms me. God is playing with me ? God know i'm thinking of him so make him sms with me ? urmmm. 所谓人家说得命中注定 ? i just hope this game would be fine to me. if not, i'm dying. :( Iskandar there dont have line. i not that angry or worried cause cant reply him. i dont know why ? but still angry also lar. lol ! i also dont know how say. my feel is like hancur already. i dont even know what i want.

he send me two message only. cause i replied him okay in his last question. its my fault not to talk a lot with him or its his fault cause dint love me anymore ? well, just now i send him a message again. to ask what time he back to camp. dint reply me. to tell the truth, i'm disappointed A LOT ! :( blaming myself not to send long long message to him just now. hmm. i wanna know the truth from his deeply heart. i wanna know whether he still love me or not. i wanna know whether he got miss me or not. those question is VERY curious me now a day. if i asked him, i scare he might be lie to me say he still love me and miss me just to prevent he hurts me again. i just want to know the REAL answer so i know what to do. anyone could tell me ? dream ? God ? him ? :( still waiting for 17 march. i dont know what to do if he back already. what if he still dint find me ? then i not more hurt ? haix ! think too much is not a good thing. i hope he'll reply me tomorrow. so i can wish him good luck. love thingy should keep it first. i hope God saw what i've done everyday and gimme another chance to make everything back to normal. :)

x_.]..Vyonne..["'_